Monday, 15th December
ONEMONTHHHH!!!!

It's been quite a good day so far. I stayed up till one talking to her because today's our onemonth and we had a countdown till midnight. Then I went to sleep after promising I'd wake up at 6 to sms her before she left for Genting. I fell asleep and I actually managed to wake up at 5.45! I guess if you want to do something bad enough, waking up isn't much of a problem. Anyway I lugged my half-asleep body downstairs and sms her like twice and then I went back to sleep.

After HR meeting in school, I smsed her quite a bit while she was on the bus to Genting. I miss her. At least it's not terribly bad to the point that I can't eat can't sleep can't do anything. But I just feel bored because she isn't around to make me happy. Damn I wish I could tag along. ): lol I'm feeling happy yet sad now.. weird.

Anyway I'm very very very thankful for the last one month that we've been together. She's been nothing short of wonderful and I'm so lucky to have someone like her believing in me so much. She's never given up on me even when I'm down and out, and she's just been this huge part of my life. I don't think I'm going to do any hw today because it's such a special day and I keep thinking about the times we've spent together during this last month. It's been super since 15/11 and hopefully there'll be a 15/1, 15/2, 15/3 ... and a 15/11 again. I love my mummy.

Saturday, 13th December
HER

Okay this whole entry is going to be about her so if you have some sort of allergy to that kinda stuff then please go straight to the tagboard and tag or something. Don't bother reading the stuff in this entry hahah.

Well I met her online a couple of months back. I think it was gil and mj and the bunch of them that introed us. Right from the start she seemed special. No it wasn't "love at first sight" or whatever, but we just got along. We chatted a lot online and we became pretty good friends. Everytime she needed someone to talk to I tried to listen. And I remember doing a layout for her blog once as a present and rushing out this cute-cartoony cover page at night for her portfolio thingy (although in both cases I was promised a free lunch, but hahah that's beside the point).

At some particular point I started to like her. I guess it just happened and I realised it only after it did (sorta like when you don't realise that you have some terminal disease until it's too late). Maybe that was why I cared so much, and maybe that was why I tried so hard so she would be happy. But I didn't really do much about it because she was just this online friend who I didn't exactly know extremely well and she'd probably never even think of liking me so I'll just get rejected flat anyway.

Then one day, jonsng told me that she told him that she liked me. At that point I didn't really believe him because it really sounded too good to be true. But I pretended I didn't know and didn't do anything about it because we weren't close. And telling her that I liked her would be extremely childish because it would have ended up like some primary school i-like-you-you-like-me nonsense. So I just stayed nice to her for the next month or something like that.

And then, halfway through my EOYS, on Friday night while I was mugging EMaths, I told her. I don't know why. But it felt terribly wonderful and I guess I was relieved to find out that she didn't not like me then. Then we kinda went into this in-between stage because we weren't exactly in a relationship but it wasn't a friend thing anymore. It lasted for a couple of days and then one night she told me that she didn't love me and it was all a lie. I felt devastated at that point because everything I feared would happen just came right at me. But when I stopped crying and wiped the tears off, she told me that she had realised, after all the thinking and crying, that I was the one she loved. I grabbed at that as if it was a god-sent gift. Because she came back. And I didn't want to let her slip.

We talked a lot after that because the exams were over and I didn't want to mug for Chinese Os just yet. And one day we went out to mug with jonsng (yeah him again) and I went home that day feeling all mixed-up because she hadn't made up her mind about us. I never doubted if she loved me, but maybe she just didn't want to land up in another relationship just yet. I contemplated quitting it all, but a part of me said no. And jonsng was nagging me not to anyway.

On the day of Chinese Os, I remember crying during the lunch break. While everyone was laughing away trying to relax during those few hours, I was peering through the tears at the shou ce and at my handphone. It felt terrible because I was so close to losing her. But things got a lot better right before the paper started and I managed to complete it without dying halfway.

I guess everytime I almost lost her but stuck around and waited for her to come back, I loved her and cherished her even more. Then it happened. On 15th November (yes I still remember), she kinda hinted me to ask if she could be my gf. All along I didn't know if she was ready or not and I didn't want to rush her into anything so I just waited. Till 15/11.

It's been almost one month since we officially got together and everyday I love her more and more. Everytime we go out, I'll come home feeling nice and warm and loved. Even though most of the time we just stroll aimlessly around the place or sit down somewhere and just talk, it feels really special to be with her. I guess sometimes having no distractions is really good because it's just the two of us and there's nothing else to pay attention to.

It just gets better. I'm glad I held on when things got real bad because this relationship was what I was longing for all this while. I've never spent a day without thinking about her and maybe I'm just going crazy about her. But she's so perfect to me and I think I've always wanted someone like her. She never fails to make me smile, then laugh, then grin like a stupid moron.

I've never met anyone just like her and I'm gonna hold on no matter what happens. I want to be there for her when she hits a rough patch and feels down, and I want to be there when she does well and feels happy about herself. Because I love her.

Friday, 12th December

I will blog more often. Hahah I've just realised how much I've been letting this blog rot away but I should be blogging more.

Anyway today was a very good day. Went to Lowo's birthday party in the afternoon. Not many people were there, just a bunch of 3T/4T people (and no girls. lol) munching away on pizzas and the like. Mr Ong came with a yummy chocolate mousse cake which was a little hard, but still wonderful, just like most of the cakes he buys.

We went to LAN at Simei after that. Finally managed to get there after getting up on the wrong bus thanks to Mr China Handphone. But the place was damn full and we almost got killed by the piercing stare of the ahbeng owner of the LAN shop. Went to Bedok to LAN instead but by then it was already quite late so after watching them frag the shit out of each other, I went off to meet her and from that point onwards it was totally heavenly and wonderful. Because she makes my day. (:

Yesterday was Group Celebrations. Everything just feels so distant. I guess it'll take time for the fact that I'll be stuck with my whole bunch of spastic batchmates for the next year. No more inter-patrol activities, no more "look out for the Sec1s", no more everything. I guess it's probably a good thing, because I never really liked the competition and all that. But I'm still going to miss all the stuff I went through in the last 3 years.

I don't think I'm ready for Sec4. It seemed just yesterday when I was at OBS, when I was invested on stage, when I registered and took out the green, black and white tie from the boxfile. Many seniors have told me that time passes really quickly and I'd better enjoy my brief stay in RI. It's really true. I feel like clinging on to the 3 slacky years that've passed. But I can't and I have to move on. One year is quite a long time, but at the end of it, the Big Os await, and I'm kinda scared about it. Especially since I've clean forgotten everything that I've learnt this year haha.

Monday, 8th December

hellooo peeeps! hahah yea it's been hell long since i last blogged and i know that. sorreyy i just didn't feel like blogging at all. hahah my dad and mum rawkkss. they agreed to let me buy a new hp so i just spent $138 on a nokia 3100. which is damn chio heheh. my brother also bought the same phone so we haf two identical phones at home now lol.

oh and everyone must go watch love actually. screw LOTR and looney tunes. love actually is the movie to watch okay. it's nice and funny and at the end of it you feel warm and fuzzy inside, ready to go give some love.

um kay nothing much else la. life has been terribly boring and i can't be bothered to think about anything so there's nothing for me to write here. so yea. takecare all.

Saturday, 22nd November

aaahhhh today was one of the best days of my life hahaha :D okay first i went for scouts interview which went pretty well la. i don't see how else it could have gone la, since i just gave my 2 cents worth about the interview questions. at least they didn't ask stupid questions like "which fruit would you want to be and why?". just plain, straight to the point, relevant questions.

yea after that went to watch rugrats go wild with her. haha it rocked la. it's not about how good the movie is, it's about who you watch it with (: the cinema was full of kids so we felt a lil out of place la. i think the movie was o-kay la. i would have enjoyed it a lot if i had been like 10 years younger or something. and it makes me feel old.

i got my pinkstars today. nice little cute wonderful shiny pink stars in a glass bottle. aaaahhhh they're soo cute. all 151 of them haha. i think i shall keep them in a safe lil drawer so my mum doesn't find them. and the bottle won't get broken.

and amy gave me my burfday present ages early. like one and a half months (hinttt). and i opened it a while after i got it. its 2 glass tumblers with funky orange stripes all the way down. yes amy i think it's damn chio too. thankew sosososo much u rawwk and i think i owe u tons of burfday presents yea? oh ya and i still remember klippan the orange sofa. let's go buy it next time yea? u can have half of it. lol

on to fish. fish rocked too. it was hilarious, yet touching. haha limmy's angmoh guy thing was sooo funny and soooo cool kay. she can be more guy-y than some guys i know. which is woah haha. i think you guys deserve every single little itty bit of credit for putting up awesome productions for like 3 years. still dare to complain about being afraid the thing would screw up.

ohwell but nothing's perfect right? haha i got conned out of 9 bucks for flowers. i guess its not too bad la. horr?

Thursday, 20th November

Fine here's the blog entry I've been promising to a couple of people for a couple of days lol. Ya I haven't blogged much but that's because I've been 1) too lazy to do, 2) too busy to or 3) too tired to. Besides, I don't think anyone would really give a shit about my boring little excuse of a life so nevermind la.

Anyway, I've been feeling really shitty because I'm sick. I'm like alternating between a very running nose and a terribly itchy throat full of phlegm. I hate being sick.

The last two days were like occupied with PSL Training and I'm veh excited about next year and the blur Sec1s. I don't know why la, but I guess it's because I've always looked up to my PSLs when I was a Sec1, especially Gangwei and Daryl. I think I've always wanted to be like them, being a big brother to helpless morons.

And it was the first time I sang our batch song We Are The Young since OBS or something and the words meant a lot to me, probably because we've sung that since Sec1 and it's been one of the things that the batch does together. And the lyrics of the song are very special because it's about us growing up and taking over the world or something. Oh and we sang it at the outdoor theatre thing at the Esplanade as a finale and everyone there was like staring at this huge group of guys in RI uniform performing for them or something. Haha it was uhm weird to say the least.

Watched Gotcha just now haha. Most of the pranks are damn stupid. Just like the stupid gags on Just For Laugh Gags. But the celebrity prank segment is terribly hilarious just like Punk'd! I guess it's more fun watching actors and all freaking out on screen and laughing their ass off at themselves.

Oh yes and I'm busy doing a vector for grace. Ms Lazybum here has persuaded me to do yet another vector for her. p0ots. It's supposed to be Jessica Alba but it's looking like Jennifer Lopez in a monastery or something. Wanna see? Tag about it yea? It needs tons of work, but it'll probly still look like shit because I suck at vectoring people.

Tuesday, 15th November

Booyah I'm finally back from CCAL Camp and here I am, sitting in front of my computer yet again, munching on Oreos and playing CS.

CCAL Camp was very very fun. Very exhausting, but fun nonetheless. Group 4 totally rocks. We had both Land and Sea Expeditions which were uhh very eventful. I didn't bother with the sunblock for tha Sea Ex because I was feeling damn sticky and lazy. So now I'm like red as a lobster and my neck hurts from the sunburn. But I'm very glad to be back at home. Missed her like crazy during camp but ah well it's over so =D

Huanna fractured his arm on the first day of CCAL Camp (poorrthing) so now it's in a stupid cast. Get well soon and have fun bathing XD

Oh, did you guys hear "the guys from Raffles Institution" on Power 98 last night? Haha hulz, zul, imran, rich and zek did pretty well for rookie DJs. But I think they had very little airtime. JR was hogging the limelight. C'mon man give the boys a lil more glam or something. Oh and the Raffles Kemama thing was a little icky. 5 people cheering on air. lol

Sunday, 9th November
139

Helloooo. Yeah I haven't blogged in ages and that's because I've been mugging hard for Os. And my life was a little screwed up for a couple of days but it's fine now. Anyway, I'll be off at CCAL Camp from tomorrow to Thursday. I'm supposed to keep an "open mindset" and not think its a torture camp but it's really damn hard to think of dragging my lazy holiday-mood ass out and hike, kayak, pump, etc as a very good thing.

Oh well. My parents got me a chio MP3 player that day. Supposed to go get a Flash Drive thing but ended up with the MP3. I'm not complaining. (: But I cracked the screen plastic thing the day after I got it. At least it's not a horrendously big and ugly crack. I seem to have this thing with cracking screens of newly-bought gizmos lol.

Yesterday morning we had Patrol-in-Town and had to go around town finding checkpoints. I wanted to go grab a photo with the Ferrari 360 Modena that DBS was offering as a prize because it was one of the checkpoints. But we thought it was at DBS Building in Raffles Place. So we spent lots of time going to the wrong place and I still didn't manage to see my Ferrari. Damnit.

Watched Matrix Revolutions after Board Meeting last night. It was okay la. Not as bad as I expected it to be. Not as bad as Matrix Reloaded. I guess it's probably because I only watched half of Matrix Reloaded so I didn't give a shit about the Architect and company. At least there won't be anymore Matrix business going on in cinemas. All I'm hoping for is for bullet-time to go out of fashion so we can rest in peace.

Revolutions was terribly dramatic though. I couldn't stand the way Trinity talked so much romantic (yes romantic, but overly-dramatic nonetheless) stuff to Neo and died when he kissed her. I think it was either because Mr Neo-Daredevil pushed on the rod thingies because he couldn't see or she got so horny aroused excited that her heart pumped more quickly hence causing rapid blood loss.

But that's the end of Neo's bullet-stopping, high-flying, time-halting, heat-detecting, machine-destroying You-are-The-One bullshit.

The show ended at like 12 midnight and Cinderella here almost got stuck with no way to go home. I am so totally not going home so late anymore until I get my driving licence or something.

Kay then I won't be around for the next 4 days. Seeya peoples around. Enjoy your holidays!

Sunday, 2nd November

Today was damn boring. I did nothing at all. Not even chinese. Until now, that is. I'm like rushing through all the zonghetiankongs for tomorrow so I don't get screwed so badly. Other than that nothing else happened.

I'm so lucky to have her. She's the bestest ever and I don't want to lose her at all. (:

Saturday, 1st November
Splish Splash

I blew all 12 of my smses for today in the morning (oops =X). Can't afford to spill over into other days' smses because it's after exams and I don't have anything else to occupy my little impatient self with.

Anyway, this bus driver I saw this morning was hilarious. He said "Goodmorninghowareyou" to every person that got on the bus in this robot-like sound. There was this guy who replied "I'm fine. How're you?" and the driver replied with exactly the same thing the guy said. Luckily we hit the expressway right after that so I didn't have to endure that for the whole bus journey.

We has Splish Splash for scouts today. Played water rugby in the baby pool in school. It was very fun with everyone piling on around one yellow water polo ball trying to push the whole lot to the opposing end of the pool. Now I have many red scratches all over myself but the fun was worth it.

That was about it for the day. Oh thank you all the funky people who tagged. How obedient. jk. Yeah thank you YC, Cassan, QX, Azlyn, Elly, Jong, Jofid, Yanz, Jenhan, Meiyi, Clare, Jonsng for the comments. Oh if I didn't thank you, sorry for forgetting. Who ask you don't tag.

Friday, 31st October
Trick or Treat!!

Hellooo once again! I'm back blogging because there's two months of holidays up ahead and I'm definitely gonna feel very very bored during the break. Plus I'm going to be horribly stressed out too so I need something to vent my frustration on. (:

I've been fine for the last few months... been through a lot of stuff. The exams were pretty o-kay larh. I did pretty well for most subjects except for my maths, which kinda sucked because most people did horrendously well. But anyway, my overall average is higher than the last 2 years so my parent's can't say anything much.

I don't know what to write now. My life has been getting a little more stressful in the last week or so. Having lots of Editorial work coming in, plus countless prefect meetings, and the stupid Chinese O Levels which I have absolutely no idea why I'm slogging my brains out over. Mugging so hard for something so you can drop it in JC. What's the stupid point?

Okay I seriously seriously can't think of anything to blog about now. But I'm happy to be back blogging so please add me back to your links if you want to. (:

Oh I thought of something to blog about. Today's Halloween. It doesn't really matter to me because all along it hasn't been a big thing for me anyway. It just means I have an excuse to gobble sweets. More importantly though, it's the last day of October. Which means that I'll get to sms in a few hours' time!!! Yeah I've been scrimping and stinging because I didn't want to pok my bill. And I've been stuck at 360 for the last few days.